"Men of antiquity studied to improve themselves; men today study to impress others." - Confucius, Analects XIV, 24.
It's difficult to resist the impulse to try to impress people with what you know once you know it. Improvement has to be a very different kind of private satisfaction I guess.
In another timeline, sgt_slaughtermelon's life took a slightly different turn and became thoroughly academic, bookish, and reclusive. Professor Melonius as an idea still exists, and he works away at his tiny university post constructing an entire world from books and ideas. These are expressions of what the notes on the margins of his books are like, the scribbles and ideas from his collection that make lovely complex thoughts, incomplete and fragmented since Melonius isn't real, and can't finish a thesis in unreality.
A collaborative series with FiveTimesNo as a crossover with his brilliant series "The Soul of Man Under Late Capitalism."