The endeavors of a troubled mind are not always to pursue "sanity" or peace of mind. I search in my head for delusions and randomness sometimes because you see in the world of neurotypicals these things are rare. I want to embrace everything my mind offers, what makes me colorful but also gray sometimes. I want to see the cities I've built inside, the shadows I know are swirling around and the hues that accompany me everyday. I love home, mind home.